Minggu, 31 Juli 2011

welcome Ramadhan.



maaf klo post post sebelumnya labil abis.
hari ini udah mulai puasa kan? dan saya lagi halangan jadinya gak puasa kakaaak *minum sirup pake es masak mie goreng siang siang*

alhamdulillah yaaa gak kerasa baru aja taun lalu padahal, eh udah puasa lagi, udah mau beli baju lebaran lagi (?)
hahaha
gak tau mau ngomong apa yang jelas sih mau minta maaf kalo selama ini banyak salah banyak tingkah :p intinya juga mari deh kita sama sama baikin iman kita, berlomba lomba buat dapetin pahala, karena taun depan juga belom tentu ketemu Ramadhan lagi, makanya bulan ini harus banyak banyak bilang alhamdulillah. :)

selamat puasa everyone, minal aidin yaaa :*

JaMBu


ini JAMBU.





ini juga JAMBU.






ahahahahahaha baru kali ini deh ngeblog tentang buah.

Masih banya jenis jambu, males gue kalo nampilinnya satu satu.
tapi kali ini gue mau cerita tentang jambu yang bukan sembarang jambu. *SUPERSIGH*
apaperlu gue tampilin poto jambunya???? iyaaa????

ahahahaha malesss aaah ntar yang punya poto marah terus gak terima huuuuu

sumpah posting kali ini gue lebay dan alay.
biarin.

jambu yang gue maksud adalah jambu. yaitu janjimubusuk.
hahahahahahahahaahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahaahahahah

T_T

gak usah janji janji yaa kalo tau bakal gak ditepatin, atau kalopun gak sengaja janji sih iyaa ngerti gak sengaja, tapi tetep aja jgn gak sengaja janji soalnya kamu juga pasti bisa gak sengaja gak nepatin :)

man, read this!



I LOVE THIS SHORT STORY.

my girls :D


dara fika and i
minus ola, she's on KKN now hahahahaour favourite place to eat is Pizza Hut

yesterday i mee ola but minus fika, ola backs for a while, the photo will i upload soon :D

HAHAHAHAHAHA



wait, but what if i dead?
will those words become you're dead and single?
errrr

i have (no) holiday


AS YOU KNOW THIS IS HOLIDAY WE BOTH KNOW ALL OF US KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T-T

but you know what? i trapped in my suck boring campus life because i have to through an ESPE thingy for a better future. *sigh

been a long time no post :P i miss you bloggy.
nothing knew.

i have to admit that these several week is a superduper busy weeks for me my self and i *lebay

nooo but yes.
*apasih

some of my friends go for kkn in a village well lets pray for them to get back soon >:D

wait i'm still thinking what else i have to share here hehehehehe

days are still flat like before huhuhu like what i've said nothing new. i go outside with dara fika, with dee too. and this year i dont know why but my name is exist in "panitia ospek fakultas and jurusan" nothing worse than this actually! i dont want to join this-_- soooooooo dgn setengah hati i must go to rapat setiap siang and the sun happily to burn my skin. WHITE SKIN.

what else?
this semester pendek is killing me softly, because too much asshitment and it makes my brain sick. have to study cost accounting and financial accounting anymore, oh momma i hate numbers i hate to count.

the stupid thing being accountant is you have to count too much money that never yours. well i have in theory -_-

what should i say? i think i wasnt born this way :(

hahahha just ignore it
i love accounting i love my campus.

i miss my old friends and i hope i can meet them soon especially emmmm no i wont mention name here :p i just cant wait to see you.

and yaa one else, rina told me that oppa already go to canada, have a safe trip and happy birthday to you :D

last week i help my lecturer about their sertifikasi dosen and i love to do that especially help bu yuliana i dont know why but i like her :D and i meet her sons named biat and raihan aw they are totally funny as a child :D

emm what elseeee yaaaa
TEA B+
ASP B
SIP B+
AKL C *I CANT HELP MY SELF*
AUDIT . not yet.

i think enough for all these keluhan stuff bahahaha i love you Allah, and i thank you for all of this, seriously.

alhamdulillah yahhhh

Sabtu, 09 Juli 2011

bye semester enam


gak kerasa udah 3 taun gue kuliah, padahal rasanya baru kemaren gue di ospekin kakak kakak yg sebagian masih ada yang belom tamat itu *devilaugh*
i dont know why time goes so fast lately. our time is running out. hihihi
dan skrg udah selesai ujian aja, september udah masuk semester 7 yg cuma 2 matakuliah wajib, gaktau deh kalo ada yg ngontrak banyak karena (maaf) ketinggalan. tapi basicnya cuma 2 CUMA DUA.
dan selebihnya ya concern mikirin skripsi (mungkin)
gue sendiri sejujurnya still have no idea about this skripshit thingy, seandainya nulis skripsi itu sesederhana ngepost something in twitter. sesederhana tweeting, atau seenggaknya semudah nulis di blog. haha dan masalahnya nulis di blog pun gak mudah. :D tapi alhamdulillah kalo masalah nulis gue udah cukup terbiasa nulis nulis hal gak penting gini, gue juga suka baca, walopun gak ada korelasinya tp senggaknya gue gak canggung nulis skripsi itu nanti. amin.
and the problem is, i dont know what to write. gue gak nemu judul. belum. gue gaktau apa yang mau gue tulis. apa yang mau gue selidiki sampe setebel itu. gue gaktau apa yang mau gue kembangin. apa yang mau gue bahas. GUE BINGUNG.
Tp kalo kata bu sri dosen gue, "tidak ada manusia yang tidak bingung" maka sayapun mensyukuri kebingungan ini. alhamdulillah.

anyway temen temen gue hari ini berangkat kkn ke padang. dan tanggal 12 nanti ada juga yang berangkat ke merangin dan tungkal juga buat kkn. sementara gue? gue malah sibuk dgn acara keluarga, sibuk dgn beli beli alat make up, sibuk suntuk sendiri. BUKAN GUE GAKBISA KKN KARENA NILAI GUE GAKCUKUP. bukan. tentu bukan. gue cuma gak ingin aja ngelkauin itu sekarang secepat ini. gue udah ngontrak MEP dari semester 5 which is itu adalah syarat kkn.
lagian gue mau ikutan SP tahun ini, hell yeah, for the first time setelah 3 tahun akhirnya sp juga. screw me.
dan ntah kapan gue kkn. yang jelas gak skrg, gak berangkat pada saat liburan dan bulan ramadhan disono. gue mau ketemu temen temen lama gue, mau ngumpul sama keluarga gue bulan bulan ini, hello this is ramadhan count down. and i love it. i love this fasting month. dan gak akan gue sia siain bulan bulan seperti ini dgn kkn sementara gue punya kesempatan buat kkn lain waktu. sesuai prosedur tentunya. gue gak perlu maksa. gak perlu latah. orang yang kkn duluan bukan berarti lulus duluan, we'll see. haha
selamat jalan buat temen temen yg mau kkn yaaaa.

nilai gue cukup agak kacau meski gak pake balau. halah.
semoga ntar gak ada lagi nilai c ataupun d i try my best you know. but i still got c+ farkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

emm well, ye semester enam thanks for being so real, :p in a good way, you teach me so many lesson, about everything, although you're not as memorable as the previous one :p but i'm happy i can throuhg it all without any regret.
semoga taun depan gue udah luluuuuuusss amiin
and yes welcome semester 7. be nice be good be great. <3

fucking perfect

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred


Such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
See you same

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me
The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere
They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me
You're perfect
You're perfect
Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me

Jumat, 08 Juli 2011

do you have to let it linger?


yap it sounds like a song right? well i'm singing it all day long.
even though it doesnt look right it feels right.
mulai meracau -_-

gaktau mau ngepost apa
bad dat good day
goodbyes hellos

dont know, thats life.

It's an interesting feeling to scroll through all the bbm list in your bbm contacts, to remember one by one the name of your friends, to sign in your facebook account to see who's online, to check your mention tab on your twitter and realized that there is no one who will understand..

i'm not talking about the problem, no i dont have any alhamdulillah, so far so good. as long as my family life in peace and stay healthy as long as my friends not angry with me as long as i keep god in my heart as long as you (who?) *abaikan* blablabla oke skip as long as everyone around me is FINE. i'll be absolutely fine.

but sometimes when you wake up, you turn into someone you dont know who, someone that definetely not you and you feel sad, just like me, i always forget to cut my expectation. sorrym not cut, i think i have to kill them. its easy to live without any hope *pathetic*

Don't depend too much on anyone in this world, because even your own shadow leaves u when you are in darkness.
HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE. HAPPY HOLLIDAY. :*

Sabtu, 02 Juli 2011

July is You.

Haha entah apa ini maksudnya. Silahkan artikan sendiri sendiri.
Saya nulis ini sambil dengerin lagunya switchfoot – this is home. :D

Oke bye June, welcome dear July.
First day of July let’s face it happily.
Its getting closer to Ramadhan. Subhanaallah.

Basa basi banget ya.
-_-

Gak kerasa…
Udah juli aja, baru kemarin taun baruan. Baru aja rasanya Juli taun lalu.
So? What should I do on this July?

Still have no idea.

Well happy birthday dearest Dea. Haha. Too much people that I love having birthday on July.

My daddy’s gone is also in July :’D

Sebenernya gaktau mau nulis apa tapi ntah kenapa malam jumat menjelang 1 july kemarin saya gak bisa tidur dan merasa kayak menemukan diri saya sendiri setelah sekian lama hilang. ada yang pernah bilang disaat kita hilang arah atau bingung dalam menjalani semuanya selain berdoa dan berhenti menyalahkan orang lain memang ada baiknya KITA BERTANYA KEPADA DIRI KITA SENDIRI.

nah, beberapa minggu lalu saya sempat merenung dan bercermin halaaaaaaaah.
dan bertanya -___________- tapi saya sama sekali tidak menemukan jawaban apapun,sumpah, yg ada saya malah cengo didepan kaca..
akhir akhir ini juga terlalu banyak kebencian di hati saya. ;O
dan seperti yg saya bilang malam jumat itu saya seperti kedatangan tamu aura aura positif yg menyerbu ntah darimana ALHAMDULILLAAAAH YAAA JAMA'AH OH JAMA'AH.
dan itu dari berbagai hal, sampai saya paginya nangis sendiri, karena terharu ntah untuk apa. mungkin saya sebentar lagi bakal jadi orang gila.
mulai dari life, saya berusaha buat ikhlas sabar menghadapi diri saya dan perlakuan perkataan orang orang disekitar saya yg tidak selalu menyenangkan. saya berusaha buat lebih menyayangi hati saya, sayang kalo nanti jadi busuk eaa eaaaa. so, saya janji bakal senyum manis mulai saat itu, dan akan memperlakukan semua orang dgn baik, terserah mereka pribadi bagaimana yg penting sayanya. karena satu hal yang saya tau. kita gak pernah tau kapan semua ini BERHENTI. kapan mereka bakal pergi. pergi dari dunia ini lho maksud saya, yawalaupun lebai kedengerannya, dan yg lebih mengerikan kita gak akan pernah tau kapan kita meninggalkan mereka. so? tinggalkanlah kesan yang baik. eciee #sokbijak

trus love hahahahahah pait pait!
jadi, malem itu saya juga get real dalam artian nggak akan pernah sepenuh hati , terhadap orang yang belom saya miliki sepenuhnya. ngapain? buang buang waktu aja.
eaaeaaaeaaaa

dan soal keluarga saya juga tiba tiba jadi makin sayaaangggg sama mereka.

serta soal perkuliahan well sebenernya saya berharap MUI mengharapkan skripsi (?)

saya jadi gak mood nulis hahahaha ngantuk soalnya semaleman gak tidur.

WELL SELAMAT DATANG JULY. I KNOW THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE NICE, DONT YOU?