Senin, 22 November 2010

and you really got me coming undone .

ahahahaha oke :)
ahaahaahhhahaha *ketawa perih*
okeeyyy still cant write, okeee *tarik nafas*

I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU BUT I DONT LOVE YOU. get it?


okeee, still cant explain it as well as i can errrrrr so harddd to describe, aaahh BOY YOU'RE SO HARD TO BELIEVE ;P

okey, i ont love you, note that sir, but one thing that i have to admid is yes i;m in love. simply complicated right?

i decided to move on. because this.. what should i call ? friendship? relationship ? or maybe PARTNERSHIP ? OKEE. because mm i didnt give yet actually BUT I JUST THINK THAT YOU WEREN'T WORTH IT HONEYYYYY ;D

what's move on ? it means leave you behind.

and why do i still care ?????

-______- you are my activity..

I don't know why this issue also become so important for some of people, including me. Why? The deepest confession above my head right now is: I'm still unable to move on.


no its not about i couldnt interest with any other boys, nooo, i just cannot find my "home" yet, well you said move on, WHERE DO I GO ? it means i still dont have any place to go, I act differently around different people. Mind you, I'm not fake. I just have my own comfort zone :)
it's amazing to remember how life brings two strangers get closer each day..
And maybe, my biggest mistake was enjoying the beginning without considering the ending. T_T
But, I just can’t help myself from checking out your profile on social networks when I see it. I can’t stop myself from dreaming that one day you’ll realize that I was really the one for you. If I could go back and change one thing i would never want to feel this way, eheheh but having friend with you is the greatest experience in my campus life ;p thanks loser ahaha

and this morning, i keep listening this song, boys like girl - two is better than one.
check the lyric ;p

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"
Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Sabtu, 20 November 2010

Jumat, 19 November 2010

[ perfect two ]

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate

You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'


Don't know if I could ever be without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see that we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry


Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess

You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together


You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
No..

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

saya ingin melakukan semuanya dengan baik dan benar .

baik belum tentu benar, dan yang benar sudah tentu baik kah? Ntahlah.
Sebenernya jujur nih yaaa -_- saya gatau juga maksud judul postingan di atas itu apa hehehehehe saya blogless.
Hmm, life goes well, yeah all is well (thanks god) my family is stay healty my friends still with me, my money still enough, my body stay fat (always) hahaha and him, stay that line, don’t really wanna go but don’t really wanna stay -__-
Hmm, bu dosen udah mulai ngomongin proposal proposalan yaa saya mulai merinding, karena jujur saya have no idea tentang proposal apalagi skripsi itu sendiri hehehehe well whatever, saya akan melakukannya dengan baik meskipun belum pasti benar :p disatu sisi saya ingin sekali cepet wisuda, namun disisi lain juga merasa takut dan bingung apa yang akan saya lakukan di hari setelah saya wisuda?? Gamungkin saya kekampus lagikan? Ato dirumah aja nonton tv kan? Sukur sukur ada yang ngelamar jadi bisa sok sibuk nyiapin kawinan, tapi kalo ngga ya ngapain? Cari kerja sanasini dong? Aduuuh capek yaaa.

ntahlah tiap mau tidur saya sering banget belingsatan di kasur roll depan roll belakang salto salto sambil mikirin masa depan saya yang bener bener masih abu abu. saya ketakutan. lebay sih emang, walau sebenernya keluarga saya kalo ga ada halangan dan dgn izin allah sudah punya rencana buat saya ttg kerja kerja gitu, dan soal jodoh sih saya juga gatau ujung ujungnya pasrah jugalah HAHAHAHAH.

sebagai perempuan normal makin hari keinginan saya buat punya anak makin besar -_- ini bener bener kacau, keinginan punya anak tersebut ngalahin keinginan pengen punya suami persentasinya, galucu kan kalo saya punya anak tanpa nikah, amboy! naudjubilah1 hahaha dan untuk adopsi no no no saya maunya anak saya sendiri. hhehee dan saya ingin anak perempuan. eh ini kenapa jadi ngomongin anak sih ???

ntahlah intinya seperti judul diatas saya ingin melewati semau proses dan fase hidup tanpa ada yang ketinggalan, dan tentu dgn baik dan benar. hmm semoga saya tetap lurus ya wkwkwk amin !

Senin, 15 November 2010

meet only !

Hai ! Hai !

Udah lamaa ya saya ga blogging ‎​(¬(••)¬)
Too much story no time to tell, bukan no time siiih yang iyanya saya ga tega buat nulis disini, its about my Mr. Freak, yaaaa I feel like an idiot ;p

Forget about him for a while, todaayyyyy hmm I meet my ONLY,oo GAWD ! I just can't believe it , I can't believe what I've seen!

I know he is in here :) but I don't know he wants to come to my college, I walk with candra and yudha then my eyes chatc something, HIM :)

He sit under the tree with his friends wearing the red's clothes, I loveee his curly hair, same like mine , we are totally twins !

Hmmm .. Oke, I can handle it, you are my brother now, I will never forget you unyuu bahahaha

That's all I can tell, nice to meet you :)

Jumat, 05 November 2010

beli buku.

emm ..
bahahaha bingung -__-"

jadi ceritanya kemarin saya beli 2 buku baru,

dan

dua buku tersebut bukanlah buku yang saya idam idamkan hahaha tp atas rekomendasi temen yang maksa bilang kalo cacing dan kotoran kesayangannya adalah buku yang bagus ditambah dengan mbak kasir gramedia yang meyakinkan saya juga haha.

nah sedangkan rectoverso adalah buku pertama dee lestari yang saya baca (telat banget) itupun gara-gara liat di blog orang yang memuji muji buku tsb.

saya juga rencananya ga ada planning mau membeli kedua buku tsb dalam waktu dekat tp hari senin itu ga sengaja si zidan minta temenin beli rubik *apadeeeeh* ke gramed zzzzzz masih musim yo rubik ? hahahaha dan! dan!

karena gemes liat dua buku yang digadang-gadangkan bagus akhirnya saya beli dehhhh walopun komen zidan "alay" zzzzzzzzzz mentang-mentang sore itu dia beli buku audit manajemen jiaaahhh buku pelajaran coyyy *dunia gonjangganjing* sesampainya di mobil ntah gimana ceritanya dua buku baru saya didudukin sama zidan pake pantatnya dan setelah sadar dia makin sengaja jorjoran dibuku saya sambil nyetir arg! saya gamau ngalah dan langsung merampas buku auditnya meremas-remas membengkokan menduduki kemudian membuka jendela dan..... HAMPIR membuang , kemudian zidan mengalah ( i always winning!)

kenapa jadi kesitu ?

buku cacing itu belum sempet saya baca, belum ada waktu sedangkan buku dee pun belum selesai, tp saya sudah cukup terkesima.. rectoverso ini adalah kumpulan cerpen yang rasanya membuat saya tambah "cerdas" setelah membaca ..
ada banyak sekali kutipan yang saya sukaa diantaranya :"matanya cokelat muda, itu sudah cukup"
simel sih tp saya sukaa> dan ada banyak banget, tp saya belom sempet ngequote ntar deh saya posting disini :)

hari minggu kemarin saya ke gramed lgi tp sendirian, abis nganterin wawan latihan upaca di spenju -__- rencananya cuma mau beli buku pak yudi akuntansi pemerintahan daerah, tp saya malah khilaf, dan saya rada shock ngeliat buku ayat ayat cinta yang dijual seharga 15ribu saja hahahaha mentang-mentang bestseller penerbit kebanyakan nyetak hahahaha.

saya fans berat andrea hirata, saya suka sekali bukubukunya, jokes jokes melayu yg dia lontarkan tp sampe detik ini saya belom baca belom minjem BAHKAN BELOM BELI dwilogi terbarunya padang bulan. niatnya mau beli hari itu, ehh trus mas mas gramed nyamperin nawarin buku negeri 5 menara dgn diskon 10% masnya romo abis sampe-sampe bawa-bawa kick andy segala jadi karna saya terhipnotis akhirnya beli dehhhh -_- hahahaha



buku-buku diatas belom selesai saya baca kalo udah dan ternyata bagus saya bakal ngepost tentang itu deh nanti. :)

( awake )

Hi bloggy !
I posted this with my new blackberry bahahahaha feel sooo excited .
Thanks to you GOD, and also you my big brother I always get what I want :)

It's 3AM here, dan saya kebangunn..
Ini beneran kebelet tp ga berani pipis -__-

I have soo many story, did I tell you that he read that post ? He read. I knew it from my friend (hmm sounds like scenario bah! Maybe ;p) I don't care anymoreee . No no , I care, but not with all those freaky feeling, I tried and tried to make it flat, and the fact it's already flat. Well thanks GOD.

Flat doesn't mean that I forget everything, I still remember, everydetail, everysingle, those memories linger in my head now. I'm sad for no reason, for something I don't know. He doesn't say no, he said nothing, well he doesn't have to say anything sih yaaa.

He stayed in that LINE, don't wanna cross it, don't wanna run it, I just want he to walk, even go or back, up and down, even he hates me, or walk for something that much much better than that.

The only thing that I wanna say is I feel bored, with all of these!better we go and pretend like we don't know each other. It's better. But he doesn't, he loves that LINE so much and too feel comfort maybe. I will never blame him, all this time I realized, he always knew the perfect time,and I appreciated everything that he choose.

He says that ; everything is not simple as you think. Blahblah. Listen to me sir, everything will be simple if we make it simple. :) you said that we don't know who exactly who we are. I REALIZED that. Like what I've said to you in bbm, stranger will always gonna be stranger, and you are the freak one. Wehehehehe

Hmmmm..in life when we do something with totalitas and strive as best as you can, you never gonna regret that. I've been praying, I've been trying, I've been striving. Don't blame me anymore, problem is in you sir, not me. Its not easy to still stand here with you, and being profesionalism, but I tried even you know its never easy being your friend ;)

Rabu, 03 November 2010

[ under the surface ]

well, hello world .

dear bloggy actually there are so many things that i would like to say to you but i'm blogless, wordless, speechless.

There's something very important I forgot to tell you.

HIM.

(gue beneran gabisa berkatakata)

yaudahlah yaaaa.

yang bener-bener saya inginkan saat ini adalah amnesia.

Senin, 01 November 2010

PAPA HANNA PINDAH .

hari senin kemarin itu campur aduk banget -_-

*hmmmmmmm ada cerita yang beneran pengen di posting tapi masih bingung ini tentang hati bahahaha lebaiiiiiiiiiiiiiii*

skip yaa nanti aja.

jadi malem tadi saya lagi asik asik telponan sama rina ngomongin itu deh trus dapet sms dari hanna :

"papa pindah ke jakarta T_T"

sumpah speechless pengen nangis detik itu juga . ga boong dan ga lebai .

malem senin waktu jalan sama manda saya sempet ketemu mama papa randa (pokoknya keluarga hanna deh!) jadi si tante excited gitu kita salaman dan cipika cipiki tapi ga sempet ngobrol banyak garagara manda iyek udah nungguin.

kager aja sih sumpah.

dari awal temenan sama hanna emang udah tau hanna ga akan selalu stay di jambi karna papanya pasti pindah pindah. TAPI GA SEKARANG JUGA KALI OMMMM . jadi inget tika, yang papanya pindah bertepatan dengan kita yang lulus SMA dan kebukti banget tika ga pernah ke jambi lagi sejak papanya ga tugas disini. Hanna pasti bakal gitu juga SAYA GAMAU GA KETEMU HANNA LAGI.
walopun hanna sekarang stay di jatinangor gara-gara kuliah di unpad emang bisa sih keesana tapi kan BEDA.

dan satu orang yang sedihnya mungkin berkalikali lipat lebih dari saya adalah dea, malem itu tambah nangis baca twit dea : crying so HARD like a baby dont know why to stop it.

pertemanan saya dea hanna dan yang lain itu indah banget.
dan paling kerasa sejak kita kuliah, karean tiap hanna datang dari bandung kita selalu having qualitu time yang saya sebut dgn "rapat direksi" dimana kami bertiga bener bener sama sama mendengarkan dan didengarkan mencela dan dicela makan bareng nonton bareng buka puasa bareng dan lagi lagi kami cuma bertiga tapi udah kerasa rameeee banget.

hal ini adalah yang paling saya takutkan. saya tau papa hanna ga akan selamanya tugas disini karena sebelumnya hanna memang pindahan dari medan waktu dia kelas 3 SMP. hanna ga punya saudara di jambi T__T jadi kemungkinan hanna buat dateng lagi sangat kecil.

saya memang mungkin agak lebai, tapi sumpah saya sedih dengan kesedihan yang sama sekali tidak saya buat buat, saya sayang hanna dan dea. dan sekarang mungkin memang tinggal saya dan dea tanpa ada hanna yang bisa kami nantinantikan kedatangannya.

hhhhhhhhh..
tapi yang namanya temen tetep bakal jadi temen kapanpun dimanapun sejauh apapun jaraknya, ntar pasti bisa ketemu lagilah ya kalo jodoh. hmm smoga hanna sempet balik dulu kesini bentar cuma buat perpisahan sama kita ya dea , amin amin.

dear hanna, calon bu dubes yang slalu bisa mewujudkan setiap mimpinya (mulai dari masuk HI unpad sampe go abroad bikin envyyyyyy kalo inget hanna udah ke belanda dan amerika!) saya mau minta maap kalo selama ini memang sering zolim (kita saling menzolimi kan ya) hahaha dan mungkin kata terimakasih lebih tapat saya sampaikan kepada Allah saja, karena telah "mengizinkan" saya kenal dan berteman baik dengan orang seperti hanna dan keluarganya, hanna dengan kecerdasannya yang luar biasa, hanna yang centil, yang punya selera humor, lagu, bahkan movie yang selalu oke, hanna yang bikin saya jadi makin cerdas karna temenan sama dia.
;)

*kalo nanti gue nikah lo harus dateng! dan kalo lo ntar nikah gue juga janji bakalan dateng hehehe I'M GONNA MISS YOU LIKE A HELL*

welcome to Jambi my litle Amanda Indira ;)

hei world !

banyak yang mau saya ceritain 'sebenernya' tapi maluu. bahahaha belum selesai. atau mungkin sudah selesai. ntahlah, atau bahkan mungkin baru mau di mulai lagi *confused*

well stop menye menye mode on.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. week end kemarin saya ga ngapa ngapain dan untunglah bibik amanda dateng dari Jakarta dikarenakan ayahnya ulang tahun, dan sekalian pengen ketemu mantan *nahlo nahlo hahaha*

jadi manda dateng hari jumat dan kita ketemuan hari sabtu, manda jemput saya dikampus (rada terharu sih, jauh banget kan mendalo gitu loh) manda belabelain nyetir sendirian jemput saya ke mendalo bahahaha mwah mwah mwah !

rada shock ngeliat rambut manda yang jadi pendek dengan alesan BUANG SIAL -__- hehehe lama kita cerita cerita tentang mmmmmmmmmmm ada deh! haha trus kita memutuskan untuk menjemput debby ke rumahnya tapi sebelum itu kita sholat zuhur dulu di mesjid korem depan sekolah kita dulu, aahhhhhhhh jadi flashback ;p wkwkwkw abis sholat dan ketawa ketawa karna tampang manda pake mukena sangat tidak muslimah sekali haha kita mau jemput debby tapi ternyata alia mergokin kita dan minta anterin pulang, jemput debby nganter alia pulang, trus pergi lagi kee.. ke wtc lah -_- kemana lageeee haha akhirnya kita makan di solaria sambil dengerin cerita-cerita tragis debby hihihihihih.

selesai dari wtc kita jemput alia lagi karena alia mau ke liga smansa nonton pacarnya main ;) jadi inget jaman SMA dulu blahblahblah hehe

abis dari sana kita lewat museum sekolah dan liat ada banyak banget temen kita sendiri lagi dipinggir jalan jatus iyek arya yuda dori bibink eik cecen dan beberapa nama yang ga telalu saya kenal. metreka minta sumbangan buat bencana gempa dan gunung merapi. so sweet ;) dan kita ikutan stop turun dari mobil dan ikutan mereka minta minta ;) hehehe cukup menyenangkan dan PANAS. tapi ketawatawa juga karena ada arya yang superduper ketai bacanda kelewatan Haha

manda pulang senin, jadi minggunya kita jalan lagi. tp tidak dengan debby karena debby pergi sama anton. sore itu kita jalan bareng iyek yang tertindas pt selalu baik dan mau nganterin atau jemputin kita wkwkwkwk . kita nonton plus makan dan sok flashback tentang kebusukan kebusukan sifat masing masing hahaha kemudian denger lagu mellow di mobil iyek yang berujung curhat colongan plus saling sindir hahaha.

that was a relly really nice week end, thanks for coming manda ;) thanks for kinder bueno yang rasanya enak banget. ;)